I went to the WIC office yesterday to pick up some more WIC checks to cover formula, cereal and  baby food for Troy.  This program has truly been a blessing as well as a lifesaver for us.  Truly I don't know what I would do without it.  Just so thankful we qualify for something.

Reality did set in when were at WIC office though and I will be honest with you....sometimes I just like to tell myself that everything is going to be fine with Troy.  I think this is a coping mechanism for me.  When I looked around at some of the other babies that were Troy's age or younger, I did feel for a brief moment just an overwhelming sense of grief  I observed them as they glanced around & were reaching for toys, something that Troy has never done.  It just saddened me that he can't experience these things.  Everyday we wait patiently wondering if this will be the day he reaches out to grab something, or is this all the sight he is ever going to have.  I just can't understand how this could happen.  When you have had a healthy pregnancy you expect your going to have a healthy baby.  No one gives you instructions on how to take care of one that is not.  I hate when I have a pity party.  I love Troy and  I just want him to be okay.  SIGHS

Troy I love you always & will be here for you....

Troy's
Mimi

Is this post to personal

This post may be a little personal but here goes.  Troy has been to see another doctor.  Surprise, Surprise!  I seriously have lost count as to how many appointments we have taken him to.  This time we had to have them look at his testicle as it has not descended.  The doctor at this point doesn't seem to concerned and is hoping it will drop on it's own by a year old.  I was relieved to say the least as he has been through so much in his short little life.  He is always so happy & cheerful despite what he has been through.

His new thing that he is enjoying is his jumper.  He will stay in that thing for at least an hour at a time and boy does he jump.  If you even mention the word jump when you are holding him he gets excited & will try to jump no matter what position he is in.  He is such a crazy little boy & I love him so much. 

The eye lady came over from Early Intervention today and now informed my daughter that he is not reacting to light at all.  I just don't know what to think.  How could he be at one time & not at another?.  It is just so overwhelming at times.  I am going to stick by what the opthamologist said, as I feel he is a lot more educated then this lady from Early Intervention.  Oh, how I just want his eyesight to improve.  It is so hard to deal with at times and I get overwhelmed, and then I hold him and he is just so darn happy its hard to stay depressed for too long.

More pics of the little man....He is growing by leaps & bound.

SLEEPY BOY

Love you Troy Boy
Mimi