I went to the WIC office yesterday to pick up some more WIC checks to cover formula, cereal and  baby food for Troy.  This program has truly been a blessing as well as a lifesaver for us.  Truly I don't know what I would do without it.  Just so thankful we qualify for something.

Reality did set in when were at WIC office though and I will be honest with you....sometimes I just like to tell myself that everything is going to be fine with Troy.  I think this is a coping mechanism for me.  When I looked around at some of the other babies that were Troy's age or younger, I did feel for a brief moment just an overwhelming sense of grief  I observed them as they glanced around & were reaching for toys, something that Troy has never done.  It just saddened me that he can't experience these things.  Everyday we wait patiently wondering if this will be the day he reaches out to grab something, or is this all the sight he is ever going to have.  I just can't understand how this could happen.  When you have had a healthy pregnancy you expect your going to have a healthy baby.  No one gives you instructions on how to take care of one that is not.  I hate when I have a pity party.  I love Troy and  I just want him to be okay.  SIGHS

Troy I love you always & will be here for you....

Troy's
Mimi